For a really long time my approach when painting has been mostly tedious and boring, but lately I've been trying to get away from that process. I found that almost perfect space where chaos becomes aesthetic. Cope with the horrible horrible pictures.
I have always Expected that the only way to grow artistically is by painting more and more, but after taking a time off of painting I realized I did not want to hone my skills. Instead what I needed was to simply grow mentally when approaching anything I do creatively. For a long time I have been pushing myself, but at the same time never leaving that comfort zone. I realized that when I don't care about the outcome and I'm simply driven by what I like I will always be satisfied. I like where I'm headed.